After the Storm

Steven and I have been struggling with the decision to move to Hawaii. 

We feel so blessed to have had the opportunity to move here 

but it has felt as though a giant storm of opposition has been raging all around us since we arrived. 

Everything has been so hard and I know life isn't supposed to be easy

I know it's meant to be hard

really hard

but it has never been this hard before

Last week

I hit a breaking point

I remember kneeling alone on the floor for hours just letting it all out 

Today felt very differently

It is such a small thing 

but today there was a storm

A literal thunder/rain storm

But to me

that was enough

I have always loved storms

Something about them is magical to me

I remember chasing them when I was in high school

I would call up a friend as soon as they hit and we would jump in the car and try and find the most spectacular view of what was unfolding

Today

It started to rain

it started to pour

then it started to thunder

I don't know how to describe it any more then to say I feel like this storm was meant for me 

to remind me of the beauty of a good storm

To remind me that when they happen 

to stop

to open all the windows you can and let all the good in

to sit in silence and listen to the world

listen to all that I need to hear

One of my absolute favorite things about storms and rain is the smell that comes with it. 

That beautiful 

clean 

fresh 

new world smell

Maybe our storm is going to be a long one

but I think this one is meant to help me see

to help me pause 

to help me wash away all the little things and focus on the true beauty of this amazing life I have been so blessed to live

and just like all storms
this one will end
when it's ready